Tonight, I held my baby boy just a little longer
Tonight, I took extra time giving him his bath
Today, I let all the things I usually stress about and try to get done i.e. cleaning, dishes, laundry, etc. just, wait
Today, we went on a short walk, without his stroller, just him in my arms
Today, I held his bare feet in my hands
I savored every smile
I kissed his cheeks as long as he let me
Tonight, I inhaled the smell of him
Today I laughed and laughed with him
Today, I read Ani Taylor's blog, about Sweet Little Ruby Jane. http://www.aniandmatttaylor.blogspot.com/
I bawled my face off.
I cried for Ani.
For Matt.
For Kate.
My heart is broken for their family.
But my heart also rejoices for Ruby, as she is now free of pain, and suffering.
Today, I said a little prayer of gratitude
Thanked Him for my healthy, strong baby boy
Today I felt undeserving
For being so blessed to have a healthy baby, with a healthy liver, and healthy organs.
Today I said a prayer for the Taylor family
To ease their suffering, lift their burden, bring peace to their hearts
Right now, I admire Ruby Jane's spirit, and courage
I admire Ani.
She and her family endured a hardship I hope I never have to face
Right now, I want to spend every day with my baby boy as if I'm never going to get another
Right now, I'm going to focus on the little things
Like family
Like hugs
Kisses
Smiles
Health
Tomorrow, I'm going to become an Organ Donor
Tomorrow, I'm probably going to cry for them some more
Tomorrow, I'm going to focus on Right Now.
Tomorrow, I'm going to hold my baby boy a little longer
A little tighter
As often as I can
Right now, I'm going to cherish my blessed life.
"...I may not be a poet, 'cause I ain't so good on words. I may not stand before you like a Knight in Shining Armor. I may not be the best of Singers, there's better guys I've heard. I may not drive a Fancy car, I don't know what it's for. I may not be the one who gets to shower you with Diamonds. I may not be a Rich Man, but you can't call me Poor, 'cause I know how to Love You Well." -Tim Mcgraw
2 comments:
Wow, I would like to say I know how they feel. But I don't. One week in the hospital with Landry was too much for me. I cannot imagine the pain. I feel so sad her tiny little body had to go through that. My tears just won't stop falling...
I too, do not feel worthy enough to have such a wonderful, happy, healthy little boy. Today I too will give more hugs, kisses and time with our little man.
Thanks for posting this. I know you don't really know me. You are Bryce's age. But I love reading about your little family. We are both so blessed :)
I feel the same way. Ugh my heart is breaking for them. I have been crying and thinking of them the last few days, nonstop.
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